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Guardian Angel Chapter 4

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Four days past before Gilbert finally woke up... Four painfully forever feeling days... Although what tore me apart was what happened after Gil woke up...

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Ludwig was sleeping in the lounge chair next to Gil's bed while I stood there and watched him sleep restlessly. Since I'm now dead I did nothing but stay in Gilbert's room. Quite literally, I never left that room because I don't have to go to the bathroom since I don't have any food in me. Which I couldn't eat anyways since I pass right through all normally solid objects. But things that aren't normally solid like thoughts and emotions I can't pass through but can read since they're displayed right over the people's heads. This kicked in two days before Gil's awakening. And it's sweet to know that he's been dreaming about me for the past few days but since I can't see his dream it's kinda strange to randomly read things like "_______? What's that?" or "Where'd the bucket of Mickey Mouse come from?!". Those I had no idea how to feel or react even though I'm dead...

When Gilbert awoke it was quiet the scene. He bolted right up screaming

"_________________!!!!!!!!!!!!!" scared the living crap out of Ludwig and the nurses outside. I will admit I laughed even though no one could hear me since I'm dead but it was just that funny. Although, Ludwig didn't think it was funny when Gil tried to get out of bed which he can't do just yet. Ludwig had to take 10 minutes of repeatedly saying

"Bruder, calm dovn." When Gilbert finally calmed down Ludwig was going to tell him everything... from the beginning...

"Bruder... I knov you have a lot of questions but you need to hear vhat happened first... The polizei confirmed the cause of the accident... The other driver was texting und looked away for two seconds... Just long enough to swerve into your lane and... kill... ________... She died the next morning after getting to the hospital..." Gilbert just stared... Not saying a word... As though if he didn't say anything it wouldn't be true...

"The other driver survived with much more minor injuries than your's und wants to apologize... They vere released yesterday... Und __________'s funeral is in drei days... You should be out of the hospital by then... I'm sorry, Bruder..." Ludwig finished while Gilbert wore the face of total and utter disbelief... I couldn't help but feel guilty... It's as though I owed him a Goodbye that I can't give...

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The next two days Gilbert didn't say a word as he tried to accept the fact I wasn't there... But what was really shocking was when Ludwig came to take Gil home...

"Bruder, lass uns gehen." Gil didn't move from his spot...

"Look, Bruder. Everyone's sad that _________ didn't make it. But you can't just throv your life avay."

"VHAT VOULD YOU KNOV, VEST!?!?!?!?!?! _________ DIDN'T MEAN AS MUCH TO YOU AS SHE DID ME!!!!!!!!!!! UND VHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOV!?!?!?!?!?!?!? SHE VAS MY WORLD AND THESE DUMMKOF DOCTORS DIDN'T SAVE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!..." There was a moment of silence while Gil tried to catch his breathe. Ludwig looked as though Gilbert was the one who died instead of me...

"... Vest,... I can't think... She's gone entirely... Und I didn't get a chance to tell her hov much I loved her... Or shov her for that matter... I miss her... So much! *sob*" gilbert started to cry right then and there without caring who would see, what would happen next, or about how much he just hurt Ludwig... I wanted to give them both a hug but that force field of emotions kept me from going anywhere near either of them...

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The funeral wasn't any better. I followed them both to my grave which is in a park near their house... It was in the grass next to the bench where we had our first kiss... It was a nice ceremony that took place at 9 am... Every country I've ever met came and then my closest friends and family... More people than I thought would show... And every last one of them cried their heart out before going home to cry some more... Gilbert didn't shed a tear until everyone left which took a long time since Ludwig stayed until 3 pm... But after he went home and the park was deserted Gilbert bawled and turned his sorrow filled red eyes red from tears... I wanted to cry too... From watching him suffer for me... but being dead means I can't produce tears... So I just sat on the bench while Gilbert leaned against the back of my grave and cried for 5 hours straight... At one point he ran out of tears but still cried...

When his sobs subsided he sat for another half hour before standing. He went to a hardware store purchased some wood planks, white paint, a paint brush and then took off for the highway. He drove straight to the spot where it happened... You could tell because the ground was still tore up from our car going off the road... Gil made two signs. One was a cross right where the car stopped and painted it solid white... Then he went to the side of the highway where we started to skid off the road and built a standard sign... He then took out his pocket knife and cut open his index and middle fingers... Writing on the standard white sign by the road

"In loving memory of ________ ________. Friend to all and the most awesome person to ever exist.Killed by a texting driver..." He then drew a cross with his blood and a heart... He then went to the white cross and wrote in his crimson liquid

"Dear ________ _________. Died January 30th..." He broke down again after that leaning against the tree with the cross... And to know that Gilbert thought so highly of me with these two comments I thought it was the sweetest and most depressing thing he has ever done for me...

Ich liebe dich, Gilbert...

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